Friday Frustration

Today's frustration has more to do with myself than it does with anyone or anything else. I am frustrated today and also trying to make a turn around because I have not been living as I should. I have a long family history of depression, schizophrenia, etc... and I am very aware of this. I fight daily battles of not allowing myself to go down this path. I have kept myself on a daily schedule for many years. Lately, though I have allowed myself to slip a bit. For several weeks I have been getting up out of bed not getting dressed, fixing my hair, or anything simply lounging the house with my PJs on and then showering and changing before going to bed. While this may not bother many it does me. I know that if I do not get dressed, fix myself up and look good for myself then I will fall into the same traps that my mother fell into and become latent in behavior and possibly head down a line of depression. I have went back to my old schedule of getting up, dressing, having cup of coffee or cocoa. For me this will do good. I am sorry to put all this out on my blog but I just felt that I needed to share a bit with all of you. So that is what I have been frustrated about but will not be anymore.